January

January has been so good to me, looking through all of these images I can't help but feel incredibly blessed. Here is a re-cap of month one of my project 365. Sit back, grab a cup of coffee and take a peek!

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Some days I struggle to find inspiration, it's not always easy to find magic in the mundane. Some days (well, most days) I feel like my head is in the clouds distracted by all of the beauty in this gift called life, today was one of those days thanks to you two.

Some days I struggle to find inspiration, it's not always easy to find magic in the mundane.
Some days (well, most days) I feel like my head is in the clouds distracted by all of the beauty in this gift called life, today was one of those days thanks to you two.

Liam Alexander Age 3: When I grow up I want to be: A Monster Truck Favorite Food: PB&J Best Friend: Mama What makes me laugh: Tickling

Liam Alexander Age 3:

When I grow up I want to be: A Monster Truck
Favorite Food: PB&J
Best Friend: Mama
What makes me laugh: Tickling

Far past your bed time on Saturday night we laid in bed together, this is when you are most talkative...your way of fighting bed time. We were talking about elephants when you suddenly grew quiet, it was too dark to see you but when you spoke again I knew you were fighting back tears. I asked what was wrong and you told me yo...u didn't want there to be a baby in my tummy. You didn't want to be a big brother. I asked why and you told me that you were scared because you didn't know how to be a big brother and you would need help. Sweet boy. You are already doing so much better than you know. You will always be my thoughtful one.

Far past your bed time on Saturday night we laid in bed together, this is when you are most talkative...your way of fighting bed time. We were talking about elephants when you suddenly grew quiet, it was too dark to see you but when you spoke again I knew you were fighting back tears.
I asked what was wrong and you told me yo...u didn't want there to be a baby in my tummy. You didn't want to be a big brother.
I asked why and you told me that you were scared because you didn't know how to be a big brother and you would need help.

Sweet boy. You are already doing so much better than you know.
You will always be my thoughtful one.

While I was busy picking up around the kitchen you were busy painting on yourself and the kitchen chair. When I noticed and you looked at me waiting to see if I was going to get upset I smiled and reached across the table with a paintbrush and dabbed red paint on your nose. "There's your answer, now go get in the bath tub." I wonder if I'll ever grow up? I hope not.

While I was busy picking up around the kitchen you were busy painting on yourself and the kitchen chair. When I noticed and you looked at me waiting to see if I was going to get upset I smiled and reached across the table with a paintbrush and dabbed red paint on your nose. "There's your answer, now go get in the bath tub." I wonder if I'll ever grow up? I hope not.

8 years and one month ago I finally said yes to your daddy. We were both 17 years old and I was the new girl in school. He asked me out on a date everyday for 6 months straight. I remember walking through the hallways with a book in my face trying to dodge him...I finally said yes so he would stop asking. His persistence won me over, he tells me now that he knew I would have to say yes if he kept asking. ... I thank God for his persistence. On our wedding day he looked at me and said "I win". However on most days I feel like I'm the winner. Look at what a beautiful life we have created together.

8 years and one month ago I finally said yes to your daddy.
We were both 17 years old and I was the new girl in school.
He asked me out on a date everyday for 6 months straight.
I remember walking through the hallways with a book in my face trying to dodge him...I finally said yes so he would stop asking.
His persistence won me over, he tells me now that he knew I would have to say yes if he kept asking. ...
I thank God for his persistence.
On our wedding day he looked at me and said "I win".
However on most days I feel like I'm the winner.
Look at what a beautiful life we have created together.

Rosser Baby #3 Due July 2017

Rosser Baby #3 Due July 2017

Our mornings. This is a chapter in my life that I know I will always long for. Not because it's just the two of us but selfishly because I get to sleep in and have quiet moments to myself in the morning, for that I have my husband to thank. This morning was a treat. I laid in bed and flipped through today's workshop lessons on shooting in low light, I hopped out of bed feeling inspired and grabbed my camera. I usually wouldn't shoot in this lighting because although it... might look like ideal lighting my iso was about as high as I would allow it to go and my shutter speed was set to 1/60...while trying to balance myself on a flimsy bed. But what a memorable shot this is for me. Quiet time in a dimly lit room and your Mother's odd obsession with vintage flower sheets.

Our mornings.
This is a chapter in my life that I know I will always long for.
Not because it's just the two of us but selfishly because I get to sleep in and have quiet moments to myself in the morning, for that I have my husband to thank. This morning was a treat. I laid in bed and flipped through today's workshop lessons on shooting in low light, I hopped out of bed feeling inspired and grabbed my camera. I usually wouldn't shoot in this lighting because although it... might look like ideal lighting my iso was about as high as I would allow it to go and my shutter speed was set to 1/60...while trying to balance myself on a flimsy bed. But what a memorable shot this is for me.

Quiet time in a dimly lit room and your Mother's odd obsession with vintage flower sheets.

There is nothing more romantic to me than watching the love of my life fathering our child.

There is nothing more romantic to me than watching the love of my life fathering our child.

I say I'm doing this for you. But truthfully this is just as much for me as it is for you. One day (God-willing) when I am old and gray on a cold and rainy day I can sip on some coffee and flip through memories of what was and re-live this beautiful gift we call motherhood.

I say I'm doing this for you. But truthfully this is just as much for me as it is for you. One day (God-willing) when I am old and gray on a cold and rainy day I can sip on some coffee and flip through memories of what was and re-live this beautiful gift we call motherhood.

Always my most willing subject.

Always my most willing subject.

January 2017. The month you learned how to take your shirt off all by yourself. Slow down, bud.

January 2017. The month you learned how to take your shirt off all by yourself. Slow down, bud.

I'm that unprepared mom that sticks fuzzy socks on their child because I couldn't find his mittens. My baby sister is going back to college next week so she's spending the weekend with us, every time she leaves for a few months she comes back a tiny bit more mature. When she is gone though we talk on the phone for at least 30 minutes a day...she's the one that calls me so I feel like one lucky big sister, we don't skip a beat.

I'm that unprepared mom that sticks fuzzy socks on their child because I couldn't find his mittens. My baby sister is going back to college next week so she's spending the weekend with us, every time she leaves for a few months she comes back a tiny bit more mature. When she is gone though we talk on the phone for at least 30 minutes a day...she's the one that calls me so I feel like one lucky big sister, we don't skip a beat.

Post bath time silliness. You are always most playful after a good bath.

Post bath time silliness. You are always most playful after a good bath.

We have mice again. These mice are arrogant. I found mouse poop in the cat's food bowl...again. "Get a cat" they said "They will hunt" they said.... I'm starting to think we just got these cats for unlimited cuddles, but that's okay.

We have mice again.
These mice are arrogant.
I found mouse poop in the cat's food bowl...again.
"Get a cat" they said "They will hunt" they said....
I'm starting to think we just got these cats for unlimited cuddles, but that's okay.

Today was therapeutic.

Today was therapeutic.

The longest hour of the day. The hour before "Da-da" gets home. He probably feels attacked when he walks through the door. And not just by you.

The longest hour of the day.
The hour before "Da-da" gets home.
He probably feels attacked when he walks through the door.
And not just by you.

All day long I look forward to the moment when my head gets to hit my pillow. This pregnancy has sucked all of my energy, but on this very night the magic of daytime seemed to stretch over into the night, leaving me anxious for the start of the new day.

All day long I look forward to the moment when my head gets to hit my pillow. This pregnancy has sucked all of my energy, but on this very night the magic of daytime seemed to stretch over into the night, leaving me anxious for the start of the new day.

I am on day 2 of Heather Robinson Photography's workshop (the family historian) and something that was mentioned today stuck with me. I won't quote exactly what she said but I will say that it had me think about what I would do differently for my little guy if this was our last day together. A year ago he was obsessed (I mean obsesseddddd) with sink baths, a few of you who were a part of this group last year may recall this but he quickly outgrew them. He's 3 now and I have told him at least 100 times that he's too big for a sink bath...what a silly rule. Technically he can still fit, I mean squish into the sink so what's the big deal? Today after I read the first workshop lesson of the day I knew exactly what I was going to photograph. He sat there and quietly played while I cleaned the whole kitchen. He mentioned how he was excited to take a sink bath with his baby brother/sister... Maybe I'll just get a bigger sink.

I am on day 2 of Heather Robinson Photography's workshop (the family historian) and something that was mentioned today stuck with me. I won't quote exactly what she said but I will say that it had me think about what I would do differently for my little guy if this was our last day together. A year ago he was obsessed (I mean obsesseddddd) with sink baths, a few of you who were a part of this group last year may recall this but he quickly outgrew them. He's 3 now and I have told him at least 100 times that he's too big for a sink bath...what a silly rule. Technically he can still fit, I mean squish into the sink so what's the big deal? Today after I read the first workshop lesson of the day I knew exactly what I was going to photograph. He sat there and quietly played while I cleaned the whole kitchen.
He mentioned how he was excited to take a sink bath with his baby brother/sister...

Maybe I'll just get a bigger sink.

Three is quickly becoming my favorite age.

Three is quickly becoming my favorite age.

My sweet boy. I know you don't understand why I've been so out of it lately, I feel like I've been failing you as a mother. I'm learning how to give myself grace, this has never come easily to me. Yesterday you reached up your arms for me to pick you up and as soon I swooped you up you told me that I was your best friend and then kissed me on my forehead, in that moment all of the mom guilt I've been holding in washed away.

My sweet boy. I know you don't understand why I've been so out of it lately, I feel like I've been failing you as a mother. I'm learning how to give myself grace, this has never come easily to me. Yesterday you reached up your arms for me to pick you up and as soon I swooped you up you told me that I was your best friend and then kissed me on my forehead, in that moment all of the mom guilt I've been holding in washed away.

An unseasonably warm day called for a picnic at the lake.
An unseasonably warm day called for a picnic at the lake.

An unseasonably warm day called for a picnic at the lake.

When we moved to the country I had no idea that this was going to be one of our evening routines. I grew up in the suburbs and it has been such a treat to see what it's like for a child to grow up in the country, everything seems to be a bit more magical.

When we moved to the country I had no idea that this was going to be one of our evening routines. I grew up in the suburbs and it has been such a treat to see what it's like for a child to grow up in the country, everything seems to be a bit more magical.

The day you returned to school. Today was a big day for you, you came home and acted like it was no big deal...like you didn't completely lose it when I left your classroom this morning. But I won't let you down play this. I hung up your artwork from school on the fridge and told you over and over again how proud I am. ... ...and to be honest, I'm proud of me too.

The day you returned to school.
Today was a big day for you, you came home and acted like it was no big deal...like you didn't completely lose it when I left your classroom this morning.
But I won't let you down play this. I hung up your artwork from school on the fridge and told you over and over again how proud I am. ...

...and to be honest, I'm proud of me too.

We spent the day at my parents house today. The lighting was poor but the food was great and everybody has learned to ignore my camera by now. One of my New Years Resolutions with this project is to photograph all of my family more often, not just my son and husband. In this photograph is just a tiny portion of my family but it is a scene you will always see when walking into my parents home, there is always food ready and a full table.

We spent the day at my parents house today. The lighting was poor but the food was great and everybody has learned to ignore my camera by now. One of my New Years Resolutions with this project is to photograph all of my family more often, not just my son and husband. In this photograph is just a tiny portion of my family but it is a scene you will always see when walking into my parents home, there is always food ready and a full table.

Today we collected 55 sticks in your shopping cart. I feel like I would be a bit lost if this baby is a girl, I've grown into a boy mom. And I love it.

Today we collected 55 sticks in your shopping cart. I feel like I would be a bit lost if this baby is a girl, I've grown into a boy mom. And I love it.

Toddler play date. The rare occasion where toddlers will fight to sit in the chair to have their picture taken. Finley won.

Toddler play date.

The rare occasion where toddlers will fight to sit in the chair to have their picture taken. Finley won.

Today I took our first picture of us together. I pray we will have many together in the years to come. As I was putting up laundry in our room I couldn't ignore the way the light was shining in. I quickly peeled off my yoga pants and t-shirt and threw on a dress that I can no longer zip up. Usually when I am inspired by light I call to Liam, my very first muse. But when the light shined in today you were the first to come to mind. So here we are at 15 weeks. A few months ago ...you were a dream, a prayer, a hope. I can't wait for you to see how loved you are.

Today I took our first picture of us together.
I pray we will have many together in the years to come.
As I was putting up laundry in our room I couldn't ignore the way the light was shining in. I quickly peeled off my yoga pants and t-shirt and threw on a dress that I can no longer zip up. Usually when I am inspired by light I call to Liam, my very first muse. But when the light shined in today you were the first to come to mind.
So here we are at 15 weeks.
A few months ago ...you were a dream, a prayer, a hope.
I can't wait for you to see how loved you are.

  I will surely forget what our daily mornings together looked like with time, but when I glance back at the memories I captured I will surely remember how they felt.

 

I will surely forget what our daily mornings together looked like with time, but when I glance back at the memories I captured I will surely remember how they felt.